Dying Inside

Yeah,
They got me Feddup..
This is going out for all my homies in the struggle,
For all my homies that are locked away,
I feel your pain
But don't worry about a thing homie cause better days are waiting, I promise.


I sit and I think about the things Im going through
Im depressed, Im upset, I dont know what to do
Please feel free to take a walk in my shoes
Im not your ordinary rapper I spit nothing but truth

You think you know me but you dont even have a clue
Where Ive been, What Ive done, and What Im gonna do
Ive been there done that to me all this is nothing new
At times I wanna go back but I got too much to loose

Cause this is my second chance homie I cant give up
And besides I cant eat what I already threw up
Im missing all of my homies that I knew from the start
just know that you aint forgotten cause you live in my heart

and I know its been a while since Ive been around
I got everybody trippin cause I cant be found
I tell them Im doing good, Im doing fine
but in reality Im crying and Im dying inside


Im dying inside I dont know what to do anymore
I keep on knocking and knocking but noone opens the door
why do all these things always happen to me?
Ma, am I the black sheep of the family?
was all this just a mistake or was it meant to be
Im going blind everything is getting harder to see
I just dont understand what they want from me
I just wanna get away and go far from reality!


And I ask myself "Who really am I?" as I look in the mirror
cause half of the time I dont even know who I am anymore
its funny, I never thought that this would happen to me
I feel so empty and cold all alone with no family

I got my family attacking me and freinds turning to enemies
I got my own mom telling me Im worthless, Ma please let me breathe
my broken dreams and bad memories are catching up to me
Seriously its getting to the point where I cant sleep

Im tired of always lying to myself that everythings okay
its really getting to me but I gotta keep thinking positive
and through all this I keep it 100% and nothing less
nevertheless I messed up in the past but that was back then

Thinking about my past on what I did or what I could of done
I learned things happen for a reason so I keep remaining strong
somethings were never meant to be so I just keep on moving on
its hard it aint easy but believe me Ima make it through!


Im dying inside I dont know what to do anymore
I keep on knocking and knocking but noone opens the door
why do all these things always happen to me?
Ma, am I the black sheep of the family?
was all this just a mistake or was it meant to be
Im going blind everything is getting harder to see
I just dont understand what they want from me
I just wanna get away and go far from reality!


yea keep your head up
dont let them get you down
remember one thing
through every dark night
theres a bright day after that
word up
peace...

Soundclick.com/Feddup
Myspace.com/FeddupMusic
Twitter.com/FeddupMusic

Sorry

I have wronged all of you,
and my actions were unbelievable,
i would like to start over with everyone.
I have had a rough childhood and it has affected my behavior,
but there is a certain woman who has inspired me.
I would like everyone to know that even if they forgive me
I will never forget the harm i have done to them.
I can accept the fact if you dont want to forgive me,
but i want you all to know that i am sorry.